In the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy
Ghost. For the first time, when I heard today's reading of the Gospel (St.
Matthew 22: 1-14 -Ed.) I was struck very deeply and painfully by the passage. In
it we are presented with a man who, like all other beggars who had been called
by the king to his feast, came, but instead of sharing the king's joy, accepting
to enter the halls of the king and to become a partaker of the rejoicing,
thought only of one thing: to walk as fast as possible into the dining room and
eat.
What struck me in it was the fact that many of us — probably
too many — come to the Liturgy not simply to meet face to face with the Living
God become man, God who, having become man, chose to suffer and to die, to open
for us the gates of Paradise — the door to the bridal feast. Instead of thinking
of coming and meeting Him in adoration, in awe, we often come to church — and
indeed this is the case with our private prayers — that we approach only to
receive. The man who is depicted in today's Gospel is a man who had a total
indifference, cared nothing for the joy of meeting the King, of sharing the
feast with others, of being in His presence, purely for the beauty and joy of
it.
Aren't we very often like him? Do we come to the liturgy, do
we come to prayer simply to say to God, 'Give, I want something, I need
something. You can and therefore You must; it is Your duty to give.' So often
people think of praying just as a beggar thinks of stretching out his hand in
the hope that something will be put into it, and so often we come to the
Liturgy, which is a miracle of the most intimate and deepest possible meeting
with the Lord, in order to receive, to receive peace, encouragement, and to
receive something which we should not dare to receive in such circumstances, to
receive the Body and Blood of Christ. And I could give you an example of it
which struck me more than forty years ago, on one unique occasion, thanks be to
God. I had not yet begun the Liturgy, and suddenly I heard someone knocking at
the door of the sanctuary. I came out, and there was a gentleman, not an
ignoramus, but a man who had received religious education in his youth in
Russia. He was knocking at the door, and when I asked him what he wanted he
said, 'Is this the place where I can receive Communion?' I said 'No, you must
stay for the Liturgy, make your confession, and we will see whether you are
ready for it.' And his answer was, 'I have no time for all this, I have been
invited to lunch. Can't I receive Communion at once and go?'
This was an extreme situation, a monstrous one, but isn't it
the extreme of something which happens to most of us, that we come to God,
whether in prayer or in Communion, simply to snatch something, expecting
something and claiming it from Him? I think we should give more thought to the
way in which we come to church, in which we enter it. So often, I notice that in
the most holy moments of the liturgy, someone comes, turns his or her back on
what is happening in the sanctuary, goes to buy candles, and goes around
lighting candles at the moment when the prayers of consecration are being said,
or a blessing is given, or special prayers are being offered. The liturgy, as
every service in church, is not simply a private affair in which we come to beg
and to receive, or even not to beg but to claim a right and to receive. It is a
moment when we should enter like the publican into the church, knowing that we
are unworthy to cross the threshold of the house of God, the place which is His
unreservedly, while the world has been betrayed into the hands of evil. We
should enter and stop for one moment, to realise where we are, in Whose presence
we are, and then become aware of what is happening at that moment. We should be
here before the beginning but, if we are late, at least stop, reflect and
observe, and move only if there is a moment in which this can be done without —
I shall say this sharply — blasphemy or sacrilege, ignoring what is happening:
the words of consecration, the prayer to the Mother of God, or any other prayer
which is central to the event.
Let us reflect on this. Let us all re-read this small passage
in which we are told about this man who, invited to meet the King face to face,
to have the joy of meeting Him, the miracle of an encounter, discounted all and
said, 'I only want to take.' Amen.