A couple of weeks ago in my address I
said that many find it difficult to use the prayer of the Prayer books,
that they are beyond them, that they are the prayers of Saints and we
are sinners, that there are so many words that we don’t understand and
cannot pronounce from all our heart — what shall we do? And I suggested
something which I was given by my spiritual Father: if you can’t pray,
if you can pray only partly the words of the Saints — pray what you can;
but then, if you feel that you are dried out, dead inwardly, make a sign
of the cross, kneel down and say, Lord, at the prayers of those who love
me, save me — and go to bed; and begin to think: who are those who love
me in such a way that I can count on my salvation only on their love for
me?..
After this sermon some people came to me
and said: How easy you have made things for me; I can now count on
other’s people love, indeed secure in their love, in my future, in my
salvation! And I said, Yes, this is true; but the people who surround
you, those on whose love you count, and those who are around you, around
us, including me indeed! — they also count on their neighbour’s love for
their salvation; sit down and ask yourself: who have been part of your
life? Who have crossed your path in the course of many years, or the few
years that you have lived, and ask yourself : when they turn to God and
say, Lord, at the prayers of those who love me save me! — am I one of
those? How strange that this question must be asked, and how frightening
it is that the answer may be, No — he, or she cannot count on me; they
passed through my life, and I have forgotten them long since; they
passed through my life and I never loved them when we were neighbours,
when we were so-called friends; they can no longer count on my love to
open the gates of Paradise for them. And if that is what we feel, we
must sit down and ask ourselves: who are those who have passed through
my life, whom I have forgotten because I didn’t care much for them? whom
I have allegedly loved, been friends with, but also forgotten the minute
we were no longer side by side? Who are those with whom I was friend,
whom I loved, and whom I stopped loving, because they offended me in a
minute way — and I turned away? I closed my heart to them, I excluded
them from my prayers, I excluded them from my love — and resurrect them
in your heart; resurrect them, think of everyone who have ever passed
through your life, and ask yourself: where do I stand now with regard to
this person? Let us kneel down before this person and ask for
forgiveness that I have forgotten or that I have rejected, that I have
renounced, or that I have turned in anger and hatred against this
person? Can this person ask God to save him or her at the prayers of
those who love them? Think of me — and discover that there is nothing
but rejection and hatred.
But what will also God’s reaction be: I
have given My life for this person, and you are rejecting this person,
you don’t want ever to meet in time or eternity – and who will be
excluded? Is it the person that has been rejected, or is it the one who
rejects this person? Think of it, because we all, all need one another’s
love, compassion, charity, support, memory. Try to remember all the
people who have passed through your life, and re-think your
relationship, and restore, even if they are dead, if you don’t meet them
any more — restore a relationship of mutual love! And then — then the
Gates of Paradise will open both for you and for them. Amen !
